惰性

04月 6th, 2011

爬得不够高或是成就不够大,是因为付出得还不够多、努力得还不够!!

人一定要有自己的一个空间,任何时候都是,Virginia Woolf那个时候对于拥有自己房间的欲望,我到今天才算真正明了。

我不知道坚持会有什么样的结果,但不坚持我肯定什么也没有!

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12月 27th, 2010

为什么,仍会觉得孤单?
已经不再是小丫头,所以不能什么事都打电话回家,不想两位老人再为我操心担心,只想让他们听到欢笑和好消息。那么,一切由我自己承担,只是有时觉得会觉得,诺大的旷野,我一个人站在中间,无遮无拦,很孤单。

calm down

12月 20th, 2010

很多事情都不是我看到的或听到的那样,很多事情久了都会有变化。人会变,环境会变,心情会变。。。。因为我还是因为你还是因为别的什么?
calm down and be brave!

煤与煤化工

08月 26th, 2009

从核电,到任何电,到煤与煤化工,将来还要到铝与LME,我越来越觉得自己内存不够,读书太少,需要充电了。
可是,放弃已经得到的或可能得到的而去为一件带有很多不确定因素的事情付出太多,真的不是一个容易的决定,我要好好想想。
在美国从西到东再到西走了一圈,每天都在赶,但一路上都在听有经历、阅历和能力的人讲话,我获益非浅,给我很多insights,both about technology and life.
但,忽然就想到一个问题,不论一个人地位多高,如果需要不停地向人家炫耀自己多有本事地位多高认识多么高级(?)的人,那他心里的不安全感该有多大?因为害怕人家认为他没多了不起,所以才要不停地广播说自己很了不起,但问题是,为什么他会怕?而那广播本身,是不是正好反驳了他的炫耀呢?
去煤矿、去合成气厂,都学到好多好多,余总其实很好,遇到自己不满意的人会很耐心地交谈、疏通,一点也不生气,整天乐呵呵的,一路上侃侃而谈,博览群书胸有沟壑,极有战略,所以嘛,everything, everyperson, has a reason.
跟自己说,安安静静地看书,扎扎实实地进步,踏踏实实地做事,简简单单地做人,认认真真地生活!
我要读书。

there is nothing like that

08月 16th, 2009

妈妈住了一周,今天走了,我很舍不得。
believe it or not,我今天是想起了耶稣的“施比受更有福”。她喜欢的,她想要的,我都买给她,看到她的笑容与满足,和被人羡慕的骄傲,我就比什么都高兴。晚上我做翻译的时候,她在旁边看电视,综艺节目会让她笑得手舞足蹈,越来越像个孩子,我看着觉得好幸福。that bond, there is nothing like that.
那天和妈妈一起看刘庸的访谈,刘庸说,“我们行善,不是因为想要老天有所回报,而是因为老天已经对我们那么好了,我们要将这些好传递给其他人。一直身处顺境的时候,要想想别人的苦难与不幸,把自己的幸运传递出去。”说得真好。

这两个星期很累很累,没有时间思考,其实,冷静下来,很多事情都需要我再仔细考虑。

其实,nothing is that big a deal unless I want it to be.

吾爱吾家,吾爱吾妈。

Lost in Cambridge

07月 29th, 2009

2009719日至28日,随张总团访英。


见识、长进真是不少,张总其实不像平时以为的或是想像的或是听说的那么厉害,她可以很可亲,但确实很细致,当然,也可能因为这一路有儿子陪伴心情好,什么都不怎么计较。


其实,一个这么高位的人亲自告诉我该学习什么,为人处事该注意什么,很让我受宠若惊。今天,她说“就在自己国内干,条件差也要干,那才有成就感”,让我很感慨也很感动,其实, there is a reason
for her greatness, it is this undiverted determination and commitment that has made her what she is, who she is and where
she is today.
那一辈人体会过什么叫苦、叫艰辛,今天的高高在上与万众瞩目是他们辛辛苦苦打拼的成果,每天在180米的高空向外15米作业,那是什么感受?作为小辈的我们,一方面根本没资格抱怨辛苦埋怨运气,另一方面不能只关注于光环而忘了光环里的那些汗与泪。踏踏实实的,沉下去,静下去,好好努力吧!


Dong Ye consequently puts me in mind of the phrase “born with a silver spoon”, while in fact he is really very nice,
surprisingly modest for who he is. He isn’t one of those rich second generation, but has lived a simple and money-tight
student life in London for three year. It wasn’t easy. Yet he has the luxury of being provided with everything. Well, i don't admire, i don't envy, i'm happy enough with my little ant's life, and busy enough working hard for my little ant's happiness, which doesn't require Burberry, nor Armani, nor Clark. An ice cream once in a while will do, a smile or hug from the beloved will do, a praise from the boss will do, and of course, never putting on weight will always do :)


I visited the British Museum all by myself, lingered there for 3 hours, inspired, as I always was with wonderful craftsmanship, by the great genius of human race. As a matter of fact, I even thought the British showed great appreciation in taking so much trouble to ship all those things – big rocks and fragile chinaware – all this way to London. I’m not justifying what they did, just thought that perhaps art should not be involved in politics – art for art’s sake – well, that’s not so easy. I also went to Cambridge with the group, boating on the willow-banked river and listening to the beautiful British accent of the student rower explaining to us the history of the passing colleges and bridges. I was very excited to buy postcards, and it was then and there that I lost my camera. All my pictures, a lot of them, of what’s in the British museum, of Big Ben, of Buckingham, of Westminster, of Cambridge – they are all gone. Crying my eyes off…………..


Is that a sign that I should go back again? I don’t know, but just like that, it was lost in Cambridge, am I?

it's never what you think

05月 31st, 2009

is it my problem?
or it's just an inevitable story?
everybody goes on the circle, ups and downs, highs and lows........
sometimes people ask, is all these trouble worthwhile?
and you spent your whole life finding the answer.
i'm not even in the elementary school here, no wonder i have to pay so much pain and tear.
when heart is in pain and energy seems to drain
i don't complain, i don't explain
i choose to keep silent.
at the end of the day, you really just have yourself, because,
they don't really know, they don't really understand, or, they don't even really care.......

关于重庆,那是个很奇妙很特别的城市,由于到处是山,好多建筑物都是建在山上,好像一层一层垒起来,于是中间及以上的那些看上去好像是悬在半空中,很有空中楼阁的味道,第一次看到的时候,特别特别惊奇兴奋。洪崖洞那上天入地的气势,底下一条街,N米高的悬崖上面居然又是街,再往上还有。坐索道的时候,看到山上的居民小区有人打球,就好像在半空中一样,真神奇。天气预报说降温下雨,结果热得不得了,晒得我没电,不过各种辣辣的粉、面、抄手都很爽很过瘾,没敢吃火锅。重庆的地铁站入口曲里拐弯的,脚底下就是空的,可以说它曲径通幽,也可以说是阴森鬼魅。我觉得重庆市长挺不容易的,这里的市政建设可不一般。
大足石刻又有和在西安一样的感触,无法想像N年前物质、技术都极落后的条件下劳动人民们如何创造出了这些神奇的雕刻。也可能正因为什么都没有,便少了选择的左右为难,少了面对诱惑的举棋不定,于是就是心无旁骛地去做好一件事。I love my country, I love my people.
拒绝诱惑,锁住目标!!

那个亲切和蔼非常厉害的老人

05月 14th, 2009

今天在集团见到了大王总,天啊,三个月不见而已,他的头发居然白了那么多,看上去很憔悴。毫不夸张地说,我当时眼睛湿了,突然想到现在这个阶段,他该是怎样的艰难与艰辛,想到一个这么亲切、和蔼、提拨后辈、睿智、敏锐又厉害的老人每天心力交瘁、沤心沥血,要考虑那么多方方面面的事情,处理各种各样错综复杂的关系,以及解决每天大大小小或突如其来的事件,我觉得好心酸、好心疼,于是一下红了眼眶、模糊了视线。
我真的帮不到什么,唯一能做的,就是好好锤炼自己,把自己变得强大有力量,以我会做的、能做的出一点力,让这位可亲可爱可敬的老总少操一点心。
祝他一切都好。

那一辈人身上实在有太多我们应该学习的地方,就像李主任,一把年纪的人,天天坚持听英语,抓住机会就想说,那种执着、那股热情真的让我觉得很感动、又很汗颜。我没有任何理由不努力!嗯,我要加油。

my country, my people

05月 4th, 2009

2009.4.30-2009.5.2,我在西安。
这是一个很值得去的城市,处处让人感觉古色古香,让城市自己和身处其中的人都仿佛还享受着长安街的盛极一时。就连M记和KFC都盖得极别致,让我兴奋得不得了。
去前被人警告兵马俑没意思,我却不这么觉得。看到那一排排N千年的手工艺品,我是很震撼的,很为我的国家自豪。这个国家,这个民族,从几千年前起就已经有精密高深的思维、先进精巧的技艺、坚强勇敢的心灵、以及深邃透彻的思想。因为这坚实浓厚的底蕴,后来的种种腐烂、退步、挫折、羞辱都没有能消灭这个民族、这个文化、这个精神。也许这就叫静水流深,深谙中庸之道,却最能源远流长;不求高人一等,却最终出类拔萃。我真的觉得,中国好伟大,中华民族好伟大,中国人民好伟大。
我真的好自豪。

Moment on Lake Xuanwu

04月 7th, 2009

don't want to say much, just remember
5 April 2009
Lake Xuanwu
Nanjing